Its been a month since the accident. Each day a new beginning, challenge and opportunity presents itself. What do I do with it?
While being hit by a car was never on my bucket list, it has provided me with a way to reach out to others who have experienced or are in the midst of experiencing unexpected pain and sorrow in their own lives. I know, as one who knows.
Their stories are a beautiful peek into the depth of the human soul. We are stronger than we think. We are able to withstand immense, long lasting pain and we are capable of growth in holiness beyond our wildest imagination despite all this.
No one looks for suffering, no one wants to wake up in a burn unit or ICU with needles and tubes connected everywhere, placing their lives on hold while the unexpected takes priority. Yet, every moment of everyday this is what happening all over the world. And it comes in the most unexpected ways.
Why?
Something about suffering makes sense. We can see it tangibly on a human level, those who survive and undergo great pain and suffering are somehow stronger, wiser, and transformed. Something changes in us on a profound level. Those who suffer long term disabilities, near death experiences and the like are wise beyond their years.
So this little thing I am going through I have to look at as a gift as crazy as that sounds. Good can come from bad things- that is a fact. God allows evil so that He might bring good from it. The good I have witnessed is the effect this has had on others. They pay attention more when they drive, they bought and use helmets now, their prayer is deeper and more regular, they reach out with meals and cards and visits, despite their busy days. I am blessed beyond measure by the outpouring of love and generosity.
On a spiritual level I can only imagine what changes are taking place and how the Lord applies my pain and suffering to the One Body of Christ as a means of healing and reparation. Never waste suffering.
So I accept this, giving it all to Jesus. One day I may get the privilege of seeing some of the good that came from this small, inconvenient and painful moment in my life.
Thank you Barb for continuing to find the strength to continue with your column as you heal. I think of you often and am grateful for second chances. Acceptance is key in so many aspects of our lives~With fond thoughts~ Carolyn~xox~